Day # 1 .. of what exactly..??

Well....... alot of things have changed just since yesterday...!!! But I think we have finally come to a decision ... of getting the amalgams out now. I am not going to blog too much about it just yet because who knows I could change my mind again because it gives my stomach a sinking feeling when I think about the fact that I am not going to be TTC right now. If I do get the amalgams out I will need to wait about 1 year.

I am just disappointed, discouraged, frustrated, etc. right now. There seems to be too much risk to ignore. But I don't know. I hear stories of people who came out O.K. even when they had the amalgams in while pregnant. But then not everyone is affected by mercury the same as I may be. But then again I don't even know that I *AM* affected badly. I am just going by family history and some mental symptoms like fogginess, trouble focusing, tiredness, etc. which *could* all just be stress..

Ugh see what I mean..? It's a vicious cycle that just swims around in my head over & over again. I almost wish a fairy could just come in the night and either make me pregnant or miraculously remove my amgalms (& with no exposure..!) so then my decision could be made for me...!! And then it would be easier..!! No, wait, I take that back.. let's wish for this never having happened to me to begin with..!! Why, oh why didn't I advocate for myself and realize that these fillings were so EVIL..?!

Oh do you want to hear something funny..????? Guess what I got in the mail today...??? A check up reminder from the dentist who gave me these stupid amalgams and never informed me of *any* of the risks or controversy.. Yelp you steered me wrong....! Well no, ok, he is a good dentist..for cleanings, etc. anything other than fillings.. but it is not all his fault.. It is the ADA's fault & the government's fault..